6 Weeks

I'm not sure what direction is xanga trying to take, everyone is hooked on FB....and for all of these "nice" features xanga had integrated.....i have finally found how to add a new weblog entry after 6 weeks...wow ...props for such a good design...NOT!

It's been awhile since the last time i sat in front of the desk, stared into the pixles of the monitor, tried to form that 10000 words apeared in my head all at once into sentences, but ended up just describing what was i doing at the moment. Like now.

Wow, it's exactly a year ago..hahahah. History has its way of repeating itself...so true so true.

Not exactly sure what's the cause of me being here. Things has gotten more complicated over time. My mind has become more complex as i age...or shall i say confused? mixture of momories and information i yet to filter.

works has been draining me....the large amount of tasks (which duplicates itself by day, somehow), incompetent colleagues that always have excuses...and that pitiful salary...holy crap if they don't raise it up to $15 in a year i'm pissing out.

on a good note,  , along with the plan, i think it will almost be a "rebirth" to me. I'm looking forward to it.

Almost Lover - A Fine Frenzy

You fingertips across my skin
The palm trees swaying in the wind
Images

You sang me Spanish lullabies
The sweetest sadness in your eyes
Clever trick

I never want to see you unhappy
I thought you'd want the same for me

Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
I should've known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do

We walked along a crowded street
You took my hand and danced with me
Images

And when you left you kissed my lips
You told me you'd never ever forget these images, no


I cannot go to the ocean
I cannot drive the streets at night
I cannot wake up in the morning
Without you on my mind
So you're gone and I'm haunted
And I bet you are just fine
Did I make it that easy for you
To walk right in and out of my life?

Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
I should've known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do

Amazed

I don't know how everything happened. It's so fast, but it feels right...! For the first time in a long while, I could fall asleep with a smile. No toss and turns or staring at the monitor till 8 am... I wanna dream about you as soon as I close my eyes.

4 26 76 46 5683..!!!!!!

"I've never been this close to anyone or anything

I can hear your thoughts, I can see your dreams

I don't know how you do what you do

I'm so in love with you

It just keeps getting better

It feels like the first time every time

I wanna spend the whole night in your eyes

Every little thing you do

baby, I'm amazed by you"

The Secret

Androgynous~

I believe there are a guy and a girl in every individual.

Some are more feminin, some are more manly...

a 200 lbs, muscular man might like to cry on someone's shoulder,

an naive, innocent-looking girl might not be afraid to die.

lately I've often hear some describe me as boyish....but seriously, I'm not a peculiar being.

I like skirts and I like pink and I like manicures and pedicures and so on...

not sure what's the reason to write this particular post, maybe just to kill some time while I drop some dudes?

janga i miss u~

Home

I'm staring out into the night,
Trying to hide the pain.
I'm going to the place where love
And feeling good don't ever cost a thing.
And the pain you feel's a different kind of pain.

Well I'm going home,
Back to the place where I belong,
And where your love has always been enough for me.
I'm not running from.
No, I think you got me all wrong.
I don't regret this life I chose for me.
But these places and these faces are getting old,
So I'm going home.
Well I'm going home.

The miles are getting longer, it seems,
The closer I get to you.
I've not always been the best man or friend for you.
But your love, it makes true.
And I don't know why.
You always seem to give me another try.

Be careful what you wish for,
'Cause you just might get it all.
You just might get it all,
And then some you don't want.
Be careful what you wish for,
'Cause you just might get it all.
You just might get it all.

-Daughtry

wanna draw again~